High

Today was the highest I've ever been in the Tree without the aid of any substance. If there are other times, perhaps dreaming, where I have ascended higher, I can't remember it. Having initiated practiced my first actual meditation session with Lisa's help using her rainbow technique, I'm becoming more familiar with my own mind, and ways to quiet it down so that it ceases to project the endless random sound, visuals and chatter that monopolizes my awareness. Doing this opens me up to Neshamah (Soul Intuition) the next world above the Ruach (Intellect) in the four quabalistic worlds of my being. I experienced this today while working on the Apostle in Triumph while listening to my I-pod (Mahler's 3rd Symphony cd 1 then the latter half of the Orchid album then Aerials) If transcendental love is the way to “knowledge and conversation with my Holy Guardian Angel” then in that 30 minutes or so while finishing up because it was getting too dark, I had attained it. I put everything away and was still gripped by that state of mind (as though I did not want to come back down) Trying to put that to words at this time, it all turns muddy, much like my paintings compared to the original vision. But its all for nothing I can't bring any of that down to share with others, or rather, it would be selfish of me, so I have to try. One way to do this, is taking Lisa's advice to ground myself, so when I couldn't function doing the mundane task of putting my tools away, I had to will myself down, clap my hands loudly (to break the "spell") then eat something like a cracker, which I did. Even then I was different, and am still, not the same. Inside the house, in complete silence with eyes closed standing in the living room, I briefly saw the whole world as it looked in my dream from 07. I was very high and losing myself, only aware of my tears and the patch of floor I stood on as it floated on high. I felt my chakras aligned, even though I haven't studied enough about them to know all by heart, but my heart chackra burned with love while my crown chackra pulled me up higher. other things were happening which I'm not entirely familiar with. Words fail me.